my story is one of a journey...
a journey of healing
a journey of hope
a journey of learning to accept
the intimate love of Jesus
along with seasons of joy and love
my journey has had seasons of pain
and heartache
leading to
deep depression
and addiction
in the form of
anorexia
for 15 years I struggled...
with loss
with guilt
with shame
with self-pity
it has been almost 2 years now since Jesus opened my eyes
to the painful truth of how I had been living
...blind to the fact that
I was not the only one who suffered in all my pain
I had hurt so many...especially my kids...
that realization hurt deeply
and humbled deeply
yet was the critical moment when
the paradigm began to shift for me
Jesus lovingly gave me a Spirit-filled friend
who walked with me through this painful time of
confessing
repenting
seeking forgiveness from those I had hurt
and forgiving those who had hurt me
leading to a heart able to accept that Jesus
loved me for who I was....
His bride
being able to see my reflection
in His eyes...
as He saw me...
instead of what I saw in the mirror
was life changing...
accepting His love allowed me to
love myself
love others
as this love permeated my heart and life
I was able to live in the story...
a love story
written by Jesus
and move with Him beyond the cross
to a life of freedom
peace
joy
3 months after this incredible touch of Jesus...
on Good Friday of 2012
He delivered me completely
from the chains of anorexia
and I have been free ever since
free to live and love and laugh and eat
to share His love and light
as I walk my journey
learning more
growing more
seeking Him more
Jesus lovingly draws me closer to Himself
and I will never be the same again
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