"but those who trust in the Lord will find
new strength
they will soar high on wings like
eagles
they will run and not grow weary
they will walk and not faint"
Isaiah 40:31
gratitude in weakness.
gratitude for weakness.
thankfulness in struggling.
thankfulness for struggling.
it might seem to make more sense
to pray for strength
to replace weakness.
to pray for well-being
to replace struggling.
for if we are truly honest
would we not prefer to not be
weak or struggling?
to live in ease rather than difficulty?
soaring high on wings like eagles
or even running without weariness
certainly sound more appealing than
simply walking without fainting!
oh but this beating heart has discovered
the opposite to be true.
that incredible joy and peace can
be the result of
thanking in the struggle.
and as I read Isaiah 40:31
I see a new dimension of
those words so beautiful...
when this heart soars too high or often
a good measure of
self-reliance can be the result.
and even when I soar in His strength
I tend to forget that I am soaring
in His strength.
and really, truly,
this heart was not created
to live at that elevation.
yet when I do soar
I feel His wings lifting me up.
and it is indeed beautiful.
running. having the strength to run.
this heart can run. a little.
and I know that in His strength
I can even run further than I ever dreamed.
this heart, however, tends to run
too far and too fast
therefore ending up burned out.
for not even the strongest of runners
can run forever without nourishment and rest.
and I realize that really, truly,
this heart was not created to live running.
yet when I do run
I feel His presence pressing
me forward
and it is indeed beautiful.
walking. this is where He has me.
and as I walk I remember.
I remember when I could barely crawl.
I remember the seasons of darkness.
of weakness.
of struggles.
and I can now see
those seasons drove me
to His arms. and still do.
precious intimacy with my Abba
resulted from those times.
deep communication with my Abba
was born in the darkness
and continues to grow
in times of light.
in times of darkness.
so I thank Him for the gift of the struggles.
and I thank Him for the gift of my weaknesses
knowing He loves me with intensity
simply incomprehensible.
and not for a moment was I alone
and not for a moment will I ever be alone!
and when I do struggle I realize it is a gift!
and never will He allow those struggles
or darkness or weakness to consume me!
and that truth gives hope so real!
and if even one heart can be given hope through
my struggles and weaknesses,
it is worth it.
and I thank Him for the radical
audacious and
relentless hope He gives.
Amen again to your words!
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